Trust issues

I am having a tough time trusting people. I have been trying to work alone for a long time now. It's not because I am a loner, not because I am arrogant enough to think that I can handle all things alone. Its not superiority that drives me to do so. Its that people failed me a lot of times. More times than I can remember, I was left hanging, with nothing to do but to make up for other people's incompetence.

I know a lot of I'm writing right now is harsh, but it's the truth. No matter how hard I try, its hard to trust others. When you've given your full confidence in them and they just fail you. And no matter how hard it is for you to make up for their lacking, you still do so.

And in the end, when all else fails, the blame is on you. Because you are supposed to lead. Why? Why? Shouldn't it be that leaders should just lay out their plan and let the team do the work with him supervising? I think it is how it should be.

Well, the world is pretty complicated and puzzling at times. Have to figure it out. Someday, I would.